So where do I go from here? I am sitting here reading the article on him, and I have to say I am shocked. First of all he didn’t have to tell me that he went to jail for 15 years for murder, but how do you really keep that a secret anyway? He murdered his mom and step father when he was 21. Holy hell.
I get bipolar and mental illness. That’s what he has, that’s what I have. But to murder your parents? I mean, I have heard voices and been very angry when I was unmedicated, but to brutally stab and murder both your parents? I mean he must have been seriously disturbed. How did I meet this man? Well, I met him on a dating site called NoLongerLonely.com It’s a site specifically for people with mental illness trying to connect with each other. I mean would you really want to be in a relationship with a person with mental illness? I mean I am bipolar, so I thought “hey why not?”
He found me on there and sent me a “smile” which is more familiarly known as the “wink.” I checked out his profile and pictures and he seemed pretty legit, so I sent him a message. He liked my message so much that he sent me his phone number and Facebook information right away. I called him, not from my cell phone but my house number. Strike one, now he can just look up my number and know where I live. On the up side he’s from Boston, so I have a couple of hours before he gets here to try and murder me. (Bad Joke I know). But the thing is I don’t think he will commit such a crime again. He was very disturbed. And he is on he same medication I was on when I was released from the hospital last year. It takes a special type of Bipolar person be on Depakote believe me. I had that whole psych ward out of control when I was there, trust me.
I spoke to him on the phone for close to an hour. He seemed like a very nice guy. I mean this happened in 2002. Do you know where I was in 2002? Being arrested several times for stalking my boyfriend and reckless driving, especially under the influence. I am no saint. But could I ever have murdered my parents? Would bipolar eventually make me do such a thing? I don’t think it would have, no matter how violent or crazy I would have gotten. So where do I go from here? I don’t know. Time will tell. Is it sick that I am kind of excited about him? I wouldn’t want to be in the same room with him right now I know that much, or even date him in person, but could I get to know him? I don’t know. I have to say this is my frist time I have ever encountered a murderer before on a dating site. I mean HE volunteered the information up front. I guess people have hidden and ran from him before. In all honesty I can see why. But can I do this? I don’t know. We will have to see.