Knocked Back into Reality

So just the other day, I was boasting about me being a wonderful sex kitten and acting all sexy and what not. Fast forward to today and I am in a horrible place with myself. I will admit, I did have the most amazing orgasm last night. It was one of those earth shattering monumental ones, you know where you just sit there and shake and let the ripples run through your body. Kurio had a lot to do with that. His words are just flying off the page now and hitting me in the most naughtiest of places. But I digress….

I am here, about to go to bed and face another day of work tomorrow. I was talking to my older suitor a little while ago and basically told him that I think we were focusing too much on sex. He not only shrugged it off, but I think this man has absolutely no interest in me other than what is between my legs and on my chest. I have felt cheap before, but its been a while since a man made me feel so worthless.

I could be going through another bipolar phase of me sinking back down into depression,  but I think this time I may have just been really just knocked back into reality. All of what I am doing is online fantasy anyway, so what does any of it really matter?

Sex is everywhere. People getting it, trying to get it, thinking about it, using it as a weapon, not getting enough, it goes on and on. What the hell happened to people?

I feel absolutely horrible.

I hope it passes soon.

Stay tuned.

About shatteredwishes

I am in my late-thirties just trying to figure out life in a big city. "When in life you are handed lemons, make a vodka martini." "When I am happy I enjoy the music, but when I am sad I understand the lyrics."
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