Please Keep Hope Alive. I am Dying Without My Husband, I am in Pain, But I will Prevail, My Spirit is Strong!


The boils started on my legs this afternoon. My mother scrambled to rub cocoa butter on them while my father said to try the Calamine lotion. I don’t know what to do. I just want to kiss my husband, hold him and love him. I went to New Horizon today, but my Primary Care Physician and NO ONE could give me the shot I need that would alleviate all the heavy doses of Lithium, Seroquel, and the narcotic Klonopin I am on. Every morning I feel like I have been hit like a freight train! I am all alone out here fighting so hard to keep it together, while my savior and love of my life Barbara struggles to keep it together in there. My friends are suffering, my family is suffering. God help me. Allah help me. Buddah help me. someone friggin’ help me! Tonight I go to bed at 11pm. The cell phone is off, and the computer will remain off. I would shut off my damn router too if my Dad didn’t need the computer. I want to be completely off the grid. And even when everything was off today, I still had so much stress! Hopefully the Nassau County District Attorney can help me tomorrow. This crying, this pain, this agony, all this shit needs to stop!

But it can’t and it WON’T kill me. It won’t kill me. So James, these are for you! Just close your eyes, and hold me in your heart baby!


And when you used to get on my nerves, this one is just for us, from my Caribbean brethren!


And this one, just puts it all together, just for us!


I will never stop loving you.

I will never stop fighting for us.

I love you so much it hurts.

And when I sleep tonight, I will dream of you and of us.

My wedding rings are firmly on my finger.

I am yours.

Hopelessly devoted to you.


Just hold on a little longer. Hopefully we can enjoy these together by the end of the week. I am ready and I can put a little bit of money together to make these happen!

AUG 01, 2018

7th Annual Long Beach International Film Festival (LBIFF)

by Long Beach International Film Festival



7th Annual Long Beach International Film Festival (LBIFF)

Wed, Aug 1, 2018, 12:00 PM – Sat, Aug 4, 2018, 11:30 PM EDT




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Event Information


The 7th Annual Long Beach International Film Festival (LBIFF) will take place from August 1-4. The unique, beachfront film festival will screen a diverse lineup of films including feature-length narratives, documentaries, as well as short and animated movies suitable for all ages. Professional and amateur filmmakers will compete for a series of Jury, Festival Honors and Audience Awards throughout the festival. Now in its 7th year, the festival is expected to attract more than 6,000 attendees and generate hundreds of thousands of dollars in local economic activity. New this year, film screenings will take place at the newly renovated Regal Lynbrook 13 & RPX, which opened in June 2018. A harmony of arts and culture, the festival offers much more entertainment beyond film. During its four-day run the festival features an array of nightly special events including the wildly popular, premier culinary event, Taste On The Beach, which features tastings from more than 40 of Long Island’s renowned restaurants, distilleries, wineries and more. The LBIFF premiered in 2012 with just 50 submissions and showcased 12 films with free screenings on the beach. After Hurricane Sandy hit in 2012, the LBIFF had just finished its inaugural year and was threatened to collapse before ever fully taking off. Aided by a $25,000 grant from Nassau County, and participation from local celebrity stars like Daniel Baldwin and resilient festival organizers, the festival persevered and expanded each year.

Long Beach Film Festival Site

And then we can look at the stars on Friday. I will put us up in a Long Beach Hotel Thursday night, and the next day, we can go here:

Lincoln Center

The AAA observes at Lincoln Center every Friday and Saturday evening from April to the middle of August and for several weekends in September.  We stargaze on the plaza, just north of the fountain, starting around sunset.


Observing Schedule for 2018
[time of Friday sunset in brackets] (days past new moon in parentheses) April
4/13, 14 – [7:33] Venus, Jupiter
4/20, 21 – [7:40] Venus, Moon (4)
4/27, 28 – [7:48] Venus, Moon (11)May
5/4, 5 – [7:55] Venus
5/11, 12 – [8:02] Venus, Jupiter
5/18, 19 – [8:09] Venus, Jupiter, Moon (3)
5/25, 26 – [8:15] Venus, Jupiter, Moon (10)

6/1, 2 – [8:21] Venus, Jupiter, Saturn
6/8, 9 – [8:25] Venus, Jupiter, Saturn
6/15, 16 – [8:28] Venus, Jupiter, Saturn, Moon (2)
6/22, 23 – [8:30] Venus, Jupiter, Saturn, Moon (9)
6/29, 30 – [8:31] Venus, Jupiter, Moon (16)

7/6, 7 – [8:29] Jupiter, Saturn
7/13, 14 – [8:27] Jupiter, Saturn
7/20, 21 – [8:22] Jupiter, Saturn, Moon (8)
7/27, 28 – [8:16] Jupiter, Saturn, Moon (15)

8/3, 4 – [8:09] Jupiter, Mars, Saturn, Moon
8/10,11 – [8:00] Jupiter, Mars, Saturn
8/17, 18 – [7:51] Jupiter, Mars, Moon (6)

9/7, 8 – [7:18] Saturn, Mars
9/14, 15 – [7:06] Saturn, Mars, Moon (5)
9/21, 22 – [6:54] Saturn, Mars, Moon (12)
9/28, 29 – [6:41] Saturn, Mars

Event Chairs: Otto Chin (Fri), Peter Tagatac (Sat)

I will make it happen baby!

I love you!


Stay tuned.

About shatteredwishes

I am in my late-thirties just trying to figure out life in a big city. "When in life you are handed lemons, make a vodka martini." "When I am happy I enjoy the music, but when I am sad I understand the lyrics."
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