Author Archives: shatteredwishes

About shatteredwishes

I am in my late-thirties just trying to figure out life in a big city. "When in life you are handed lemons, make a vodka martini." "When I am happy I enjoy the music, but when I am sad I understand the lyrics."

Hold On

Hold on when you can’t go on any longer. Time is against us. The world is against us. But between time and space we exist. So hold on. I cannot save you. I tried damned hard. But I just wasn’t … Continue reading

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Attacked on Social Media While Suffering with Bipolar Disorder

I have to expose this bitch. After crying for an hour, she needs to pay for her sins. The following is what occurred on Facebook this evening: Lynn Carefree is feeling heartbroken in Roosevelt, New York. 1 hr ¬∑ You … Continue reading

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Please Keep Hope Alive. I am Dying Without My Husband, I am in Pain, But I will Prevail, My Spirit is Strong!

The boils started on my legs this afternoon. My mother scrambled to rub cocoa butter on them while my father said to try the Calamine lotion. I don’t know what to do. I just want to kiss my husband, hold … Continue reading

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As an Artist, I wasn’t able to display my biggest talent when I was in NUMC. Sex, and all aspects of it is where my TRUE talent is. Explore with me ways to please your man Ladies!

Thinking of my husband James B. tonight is killing me! There is an entire new generation of sex out there with the invention of the internet. Being a 38 year-old Executive Level Single woman of NYC, I mastered the art … Continue reading

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A BreakThrough! Come Dance With Me!

Things have FINALLY started to look up. After a HORRID experience this weekend, I FINALLY Have Made it To a Point of Happiness. So join me, Dance with Me with a Collection of tunes on my Sansa SanDisk MP3 Player … Continue reading

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I Might Not Wake Up Tomorrow

Tonight is very hard. I am staring at my Lithium, my Seroquel and my Klonopin and I feel like swallowing them all tonight. I was all ready to sleep after a shower at midnight, and then the tears just kept … Continue reading

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To My Husband, Please Do Not Give Up on Me, On Us

As I rest my head tonight, I will dream of you. Please do not lose hope. Have faith in me, have faith in us. We were dead inside all our lives, we both wanted to die. But fate brought us … Continue reading

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