I am Survivor, Let Me Fight For You.


What is it like to be broken? How does it feel to be completely alone? What does it feel like to be violated and raped by men? The world of men does not understand how to decipher these hardships. My name is Ethlyn Feroz, and I have suffered beyond comprehension. But I am a survivor.

This post is dedicated to all the brave women of the world who are powerhouses, who are dynamos, who are ruthless, who are cunning, who are mothers. And most of all I dedicate this post to my loving mother who was scared for her daughter’s life when the Nassau County Police Department showed up at my door this morning. Why were they there? Ask the executives at Nassau University Medical Center in which I was just released last Thursday from the traumatic experience I had for 4 months at their 14th Floor Psych Ward.

My best friend in the whole world Dave told me to stay off social media, so I am going to take his advice and just rest this weekend. But Monday morning its off to my doctor David Foster, and straight to the Nassau County District Attorney’s office. I will NOT BE SILENCED. You cannot break my spirit.

I will be your advocate.

I will fight for you.

I will win this war, even  if it kills me.

Please follow and support me!

Lynn Carefree – Facebook

@LynnLovesTrek (Lipstick and Lace) – Twitter.

Thank you. May the Gods Bless me with President Donald Trump’s support as I begin the fight for all people who suffer from Mental Illness everywhere.

It is God’s Mission.

It is my mission.

I will help you.

I promise.

I love you.

Stay tuned.

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When There is No Hope, My Soul Still Loves You, Please Hold on To My Love

Jail Corridor And Cells

I suffered yesterday. I went back to Nassau University Medical Center to go to the Gynaecology Department because I was hemorrhaging so much blood from my vagina. And do you know what they did? They stuck a medal tube in me as I was shaking and crying on the examination table. WTF NUMC Hospital? Is there no limit to your violations of my body? They even turned me away from the Psych Unit, saying they couldn’t give me my $270 shot and they couldn’t let me give essential toiletries that I spent $50 at Walgreens formy friend, downstairs in the lobby.

I cried buckets of tears as I drove home. I didn’t even go to Roosevelt. I went back home to my old Valley Stream house and parked near Hendrickson park, and cried and cried as the Thunder and Lightning boomed overhead. The Blood Moon last night was all part of my suffering. I SUFFERED last night, and when I called for my husband I was told I am not allowed to speak to him or have any contact with him ever again. WTF Nassau University Medical Center, do you want me or my husband to commit suicide????

Mr. Donald Trump, I need your help. I can’t do this. I can’t take this. I need my husband, I need my friends. A young 22-year old boy that I knew from the 14th Floor was released yesterday, just thrown out into the streets, and while I was running all over the hospital trying to get my shot and my GYNO exam, I was looking all over for him and didn’t find him. He didn’t even call me. He could be dead somewhere. And does the Hospital care? Of course not. They all got their paychecks yesterday and left at 3pm. I SAW THEM WHEN THEY LEFT IN THEIR SUIT AND TIES and left all the minority workers there, including the cops of Nassau County!

Mark my words, you will pay for what you did to me and my family Nassau University Medical Center. I will take away your hospital. I will take away ALL YOUR FUCKING MONEY. Your white privileged asses will become so poor you will end up living on food stamps in the most horrible ghetto where all my friends from East New York and South Bronx will murder you in your sleep.

I have had enough. I cried buckets of tears as my bleeding vagina was violated in your Hospital, and I WILL NOT BE SILENCED. I am taking this article to FOX NEWS, you WILL BE EXPOSED for your injustice. JAIL FOR YOU! YOU WILL ALL BE JAILED.

Stay tuned.

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The Ultimate Payback


Being released from Nassau University Medical Center has been an eye-opening experience at this point in my life. I have achieved and prevailed through unsurmountable challenges, and have secured my place at the Executive Level in the richest part of the country.

Wish me luck at landing this job!

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Direct Member Service BUSIN01634

Posted: July 5, 2018


Westbury, NY, USA

Westbury, NY, USA

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Job Details


The primary role of this individual will be to proactively source & acquire new employer relationships for the purposes of membership development and recruitment that provide new business to NEFCU.  This individual will be responsible for managing relationships with Centers of Influence, Business owners, Education Leaders, Community leaders and CU partners including branch staff, to maximize sales opportunities and build referral resources. The BDO is responsible for participating in activities centered on prospecting new business including canvassing, outbound calling and networking. This position requires availability and flexibility to work evening and weekend hours and includes extensive travel primarily on Long Island.

This individual must possess extraordinary communication, persuasion and presentation skills and have strong interpersonal and relationship management skills. He/she must possess the knowledge, skills, attitude and values necessary to create a climate for high individual and departmental achievement. He/she is expected to deliver a high level of retail and business member service at all times, including sales and technical expertise in consumer and business products.

Teamwork is essential to the success of this position. Working as a team player, this individual will assist his/her coworkers throughout the Credit Union in achieving total quality and contribute to a friendly and cooperative working environment.



Develop and execute a comprehensive market sales plan to achieve all goals, including but not limited to, deposit, lending, new member, new employer and consumer activity goals.

Build NEFCU’s @ work company portfolio by cultivating new business in the assigned market and evaluate opportunities presented through branch and call center referred prospects.

Maintain a Center of Influence network by engaging in business networking activities. Actively represent NEFCU in the business community to help drive effective employer partnerships which fuel goal achievement.

Manage NEFCU @ Work business pipeline, with an emphasis on ensuring timely decisions and quality communication with prospective Long Island employers.

Must be well-versed in market trends and understand how NEFCU’s banking products and services compare to competition.

Expand banking relationships by identifying needs and leveraging opportunities that increase member relationships with the credit union

Partner with NEFCU’s sales teams including branches, investment services, mortgage and commercial lending to deepen relationships, highlight NEFCU product offerings and facilitate effective referrals.

Partner with Business Development Specialist to ensure a quality member on-boarding experience and increase the potential to cross sell additional products.

Train and develop business development partners in effective sales and presentation skillsets.

Educate members on utilizing available access channels including ATM network, Mobile Banking, Online Banking, Remote Deposit, and Shared Branch Services.

Utilize assigned CRM to create pipeline report, and manage referrals. Maintain accurate records of activities conducted, results and follow up.

Adhere to NEFCU’s policies, procedures and standards.

Attend at least the required number of training sessions per year as outlined, as outlined by the department head, including any required self-guided NEFCU University on-line training classes, job specific webinars or other programs sanctioned by the NEFCU’s Organizational Development Department.

Successfully complete training certifications for IRAs, Business Accounts, and all Real Estate Loans, including Mortgages.

Travel to and from businesses, organizations, and events using own vehicle. Maintain a detailed log of all travel and expenses related to same.

Be flexible with work hours and, depending on work volume and or special projects/assignments, extend hours necessary to get the job done.

Perform other duties, tasks and special projects as required, assigned or directed.


  • Bachelor’s degree plus three years proven sales experience within a financial institution with 18 months in a leadership role, or five years Business Development and/or retail banking sales and relationship management experience
  • A strong degree of coordination and time management skills are essential.
  • Consistently demonstrate leadership in the areas of member service, cross-sales, goal achievement, quality, attitude, reliability, initiative, professionalism and work productivity by consistently achieving or exceeding standards set.
  • Registered as a NMLS representative
  • Experience and track record of proven success in:
  • External prospecting both phone and in person.
  • Generating leads and building a referral network.
  • Managing relationships.
  • Goal attainment.
  • Ability to influence others
  • Public speaking & conducting presentations.
  • Excellent communication skills both written and verbal
  • Proven record of reliability, dependability and flexibility
  • Detail oriented and organized
  • Results oriented, self-starter with consistent performance in achievement of sales, service and quality goals.
  • Ability and willingness to work flexible schedule that accommodates prospecting, networking and community relations events
  • High level of energy, enthusiasm, ambition and drive
  • Corporate appearance and positive, professional attitude

Equal Opportunity Employer/Protected Veterans/Individuals with Disabilities

The contractor will not discharge or in any other manner discriminate against employees or applicants because they have inquired about, discussed, or disclosed their own pay or the pay of another employee or applicant. However, employees who have access to the compensation information of other employees or applicants as a part of their essential job functions cannot disclose the pay of other employees or applicants to individuals who do not otherwise have access to compensation information, unless the disclosure is (a) in response to a formal complaint or charge, (b) in furtherance of an investigation, proceeding, hearing, or action, including an investigation conducted by the employer, or (c) consistent with the contractor’s legal duty to furnish information.

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The Universe Changes as I Bleed

My menstrual cycle. Non-existent for years since I have been on meds. It’s early morning here in New York, and as a new celestial event arises, so does my suffering. I am behooved with feelings of dread and fear. Please Dear God, hide me from my parents. Please don’t send me back to Nassau University Medical Center – I won’t be able to take it. This time I will die for sure. James please save me. I am going back there at 2pm to see Dr. Barris. Please beg them to release you to me. I just want to hold you. I just want you to hold me. I just need someone to tell me it will be okay. 4 months of Hell we endured on the 14th floor, and now that I am out I am so lost without you, my darling.

Please save me. I can’t take this pain.

I am a Moon Child”

Skygazers await century’s longest ‘blood moon’


Skywatchers will be treated to the longest “blood moon” eclipse of the 21st Century on Friday.
As it rises, during this total eclipse, Earth’s natural satellite will turn a striking shade of red or ruddy brown.
The “totality” period, when light from the Moon is totally obscured, will last for one hour, 43 minutes.

The eclipse is visible from Europe, the Middle East, Africa, Australia, most of Asia and South America and in the UK from around 21:00 to 22:15 BST.

On the same night and over the coming days, Mars will be at its closest point to Earth since 2003 – visible as a “bright red star” where skies are clear.
Why will the eclipse last so long?
The Moon will pass right through the centre of the Earth’s shadow, at the shadow’s widest point.

“This is actually almost as long as a lunar eclipse could be,” Prof Tim O’Brien, an astrophysicist at University of Manchester, explained.
It coincides not only with Mars’s close approach, but with what he described as a “procession of planets” – a line-up of our celestial neighbours that will give skywatchers a particularly good view of Venus, Jupiter, Saturn and Mars.

Eclipse terms
Umbra: The darker, central part of the Earth’s shadow
Penumbra: The lighter, outer part of the shadow cast by our planet.



Because the Moon is far away from Earth relatively speaking – its orbit is an ellipse, so it moves closer and further and looks larger and smaller from Earth.
“Mars will look like this beautiful bright red star just below the Moon,” said Prof O’Brien.
“Every couple of years or so, the Earth overtakes Mars on the inside as it orbits the Sun, so Mars is closest to us.

“And because of the elliptical shape of the orbit, it’s even closer than normal; it really is a great time to spot Mars.”

Where will the eclipse be visible?

Where skies are clear of cloud, the spectacle will be visible almost everywhere around the world, with the exception of North America. The eclipse will already have started by the time the Moon rises over the UK and Western Europe.
Prof O’Brien explained that people in the UK would “need to have a clear south-eastern horizon as the Moon comes up” in order to see it.


The best views – weather permitting – could be across Eastern Europe, Central and East Africa and South East Asia, from where the entire eclipse will be visible.
So, from the UK and Europe, the south-east will be the place to look for the rising, eclipsing Moon with bright red Mars below. But for views of elsewhere in the Solar System, Jupiter will be in the southern sky and Venus in the west.
Dr Emily Brunsden, director of the University of York’s Astrocampus, added that this eclipse was a “micro blood moon”.
“This is a total eclipse at a time in its orbit when it is close to being the farthest from Earth, or at apogee,” she said.
“Hence the Moon is fractionally smaller than usual.”

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Stages of a total lunar eclipse

Penumbral eclipse begins: This starts when the outer (and lighter) part of the Earth’s shadow begins moving across the Moon

Partial eclipse begins: This stage takes hold when the darker, inner part of the Earth’s shadow (umbra) begins covering the Moon

Total eclipse begins: Also called totality, this occurs when the umbra completely covers the Moon, turning it a reddish brown colour

Maximum eclipse: The mid-point of totality
Total eclipse ends: The umbra starts moving away from the Moon’s face after totality

Partial eclipse ends: Earth’s umbra completely leaves the surface of the Moon

Penumbral eclipse ends: The outer part of the shadow (penumbra) completely moves away from the Moon.

Source: timeanddate.com

Please pray for me. I will take it all for you. All the pain.

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To James – You Saved My Life, and I Owe You Mine. True Love in the Purest Form.


Easter –

I was reborn, in the Heart of Jesus Christ

I am sinner, I am a whore, and I fell before your feet.

Every night you heard me cry and scream for freedom.

Every morning I looked into your blue eyes and melted with love.

We ate every meal, we shared laughs, pain and tears.

I married you without a priest, because our love need no labels.

Real suffering, real anguish.

You jumped in front of a train, I slammed my cars through barriers.

We know violence and real heartache.

We are alcoholics in the truest meaning of the word.

Every night that I have been free I have dreamed of a kiss.

Not even a fuck, but just a passionate embrace of your lips and mine.

I just want to kiss you James, under the stars, free of jail and the mental health system.

I want to kiss you so bad that my orgasms since I left the hospital have been mind-blowing.

I want you.

I need you.

I love you.

I will die for you.

Forever and always my beloved.


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A Message of Hope to the Patients on the 14th Floor of Nassau Community Medical Center


My brothers and sisters. James, Eugene, Desmond, Lionel, Barbara, Regina and Carol, I cried for you today. Since my discharge I have been in high gear – taking care of finances, being the bad ass business woman I am – all in preparation for all your discharges. However, I am fighting the battle alone on the outside. Since my discharge, this was the first day I wanted to take a drink. My mom is Hell on High Water. The woman aggravates me to no end and is the reason that my Dad is at the bottom of a case of Coors Light every weekend, despite all the metal in his chest from three separate heart attacks.

But she is my Mom. She cleaned my room, did my laundry, prepared everything for me when I got home. Families fight, and my family in particular is very special. Everyone in my household works their ass off, and their biggest fear is my brilliant mind getting shut away in a Mental Institution at the tender age of 38 in spite of my massive potential.

I am going to see Dr. Barris tomorrow before my therapist appointment with Ernie Dixon at New Horizon at 50 Hawthorne Avenue in Valley Stream, New York (the best mental health center in the country if you ask me), to request additional medication. Due to my massive payments in Social Security Benefits because of all my Executive Positions over the past 24 years I do not qualify for any help with medical and drug prescription costs. AARP keeps bugging me, but they denied me because I am not 50 yet, so what the hell AARP? Get the fuck out of my mailbox! Anyway, I fall in the category that most Senior Citizens who worked their ass off all their life and are now being treated as second class citizens.

Fuck that!

At Brightstar Care in 2013, I fought relentlessly for the rights of senior citizens by hiring excellent Home Health Aides for the Owner Don Nickel and his wife Maureen Nickel, did their payroll, and staffed one of the largest retirement homes in Nassau County, New York. We MUST TAKE CARE OF THE ELDERLY. They have riches of the soul and mind more than money, so why the fuck do you take all their shit America? Liberals shut your face already! My parents are taken care of by me and my sister, so why do the elite shove their parents in a retirement home and take all their money? Because they are goddamn sinning scumbags that’s why! They need Jesus. Eh, screw it, they are gonna burn in Hell anyway, I’ll just be laughing from the stars with the lighted flame that’s all.

I just wanted to say that you have hope. I am here on the outside waiting for you all. I will save you all like you saved me. It is my mission. It is God’s mission to help you all, and I will accomplish my task, even if it causes my own death.

I will die for you NUMC. There is no limit to my love for you all, especially Melanie and Kim. You taught me love, you gave me strength, you saved my life.

See you tomorrow Dr. Barris!

Stay tuned.

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The Power of Forgiveness from the Laws of Jesus Christ – An Open Letter of Thanks to the Magnificent Staff at Nassau University Medical Center’s Psych Unit


My words. They come from the Dead Sea Scrolls. They come from the aliens who aided Nikola Telsa. “You don’t need to find my love of hope and healing from tall churches of gold and silver, break a piece of wood and you will find me, turn over a stone and I will be there.” The Power of Christ is in my Saudi Arabian/Middle Eastern bloodline. I am related to Sarah, the daughter of Christ and Mary Magdaline. They spoke to me as well as my dead Muslim Imam (Muslim Priestess) grandmother who visited Mecca and went to Hajj. I spent nearly two months in Nassau University Medical Center’s “Quiet Isolation Room” with no hope, over-medicated, drugged to the point of death, where the horrified morning staff had to peel me off the floor naked after I had been burned and shackled.

I have seen death, but it did not AND WILL NOT stop me. Every day I died, and every morning Dr. Robert Barris tried to help me. He saved my life. William Houston saved my life because every morning after reading a chapter of the New Testament, I selflessly handed him my entire breakfast, at dinner I gave away my entire tray, I handed out snacks, I sang my heart out, I danced my ass off, I used every tool the staff gave me to aid me in my alcohol and mental health recovery while the millionaire “fat cat” owners of the hospital starved and murdered all of us.

But we MUST learn Forgiveness. Maria, Tonya, Blanca, Sonya, Barbara, Missy, Joseph, Tony, Beatrice, Bernadette (the strong ass police officer who aided me in my freedom), the generous Lisa who selflessly gave me clothes, to Rochen, to Greg, to Celestine, to the Prince of Ghana, to the magnificent Tanisha Brown, (Jasmine), to little miss Penguin, even to my social worker Helene who I cursed out at every turn, Dr. Barris and his team of specialists saved my life, and gave me the power of my brain to reach heights to which President Donald Trump wrote me this personal letter:



Thank you for your generous contribution to continue the fight to Make America Great Again!

Donald Trump never could’ve won without your support, Ethlyn. And he cannot fix our country without your help.

For far too long, we’ve heard Washington politicians give the excuse that “it can’t be done.” They say we can’t balance the budget, we can’t stop corruption, we can’t control the border, we can’t bring jobs back to our country.

This is America. We can and we WILL get it done.

Now is the time to work together, unite our country, and bind the wounds of our divided nation.

Thank you and God bless you,

Donald J. Trump

I have fought for 14 years to help those with mental health issues. If you are alone, I will talk to you. If you are scared I will hug you. I will love you with endless love because there is no limit to the length of my heart-strings. Do you know why the aliens of New Earth past the Andromeda Galaxy in the binary star system haven’t contacted us? BECAUSE WE DON’T DESERVE IT! As a society, we are broken. We rape, hate, murder, molest and sin on a level of epic proportion. Jesus Christ was an alien. When he comes to me in my heart, the voice of that man echoes in my own magnificent voice. When I cry, the heavens and doves cry at my will. I can stare a wild lion down and make him my brother. I can easily disappear in the magnificent new rain forest of my brethren Guyanese brothers and sisters deep off the shores of South America. My Hopi tribe members cried for me as well as Nikko Bear. His song “Black as Night” was made just for me because as my Native Tribe members know, the Earth is my mother as well as theirs. I can walk barefoot in the dirt, I can fall naked in the sand and let it cover my honey-kissed caramel skin over my perfect body. June 26th is a Holy Date, because I am the equinox of the Roman Calendar, a Moon Child, a Woman of the Water with a voice like Ariel from the Little Mermaid. When you hear me sing your heart melts, when you see me dance your body moves with mine. I will love you till you die and when you die, I will bless you to my extraterrestrial brothers so that you will have a place forever in the stars. I will touch your soul with mine and you will cry tears of joy as you laugh with me and my brilliant smile. When I smile the whole room brightens, when I laugh the whole room laughs with me. I am a showstopper, I am a beauty model, I am a mathematical genius, but one thing I have always known and what I try to teach is humility.


I forgive you Nassau County Police Department. You took away my human rights, but I forgive you. You vandalized my body with your Haldol injections for two months and murdered my spirit, but I forgive you. I forgive you Kirk Windisch even though I committed suicide and you used me and killed my soul for 5 years when I was at the height of my Executive Career at the Yale Club of New York City at the tender age of 24. I forgive you for leaving me at the mercy of a careless “elitist” psychiatrist who threw Lexapro at me while I cried and then kicked me to the curb which led me to  drink more alcohol and lost everything – my man, my career, my apartment and my will to live. The three years that followed were so dark, I spent them all in bed, depressed, drunk and then committed suicide as the staff of Jamaica Hospital pumped my stomach and warned me that I would end up in Creedmore Upstate.

I know darkness. I know pain. Excruciating pain. My legs have burns from a fire pain. I can light a flame to my skin and it will just melt off my skin like wax off a candle. I crashed 4 cars to the point where they looked like a piece of tinfoil and I walked away without a scratch. I am the only woman in the world born without at thyroid gland, and honestly, I can’t tell you what the hell they injected me with when I was born at Brookdale Hospital in 1980 and spent the first six months of my life being experimented on. I talk to aliens. I hear them, they hear me, and as Gene Roddenberry and Leonard Nimoy have told me, “Humanity is just not ready yet.” When Trump leaves office in 2024 after he completes his second term, who knows? Maybe I will run for President. I know I will get the votes for sure, but do I want it? HELL NO! I want me and my husband James to open a Dance Studio/Tattoo Parlor and make it so affordable that ANYONE can come and partake in the festivities. I will make my dance classes so cheap ($25) and I will take on anyone who wants to lose weight and be sexier and confident, NO MATTER WHO YOU ARE. If you smoke crack, I will cure your addiction. If you lost everything, I will give you money. If you are hurt, let my magic hands heal you. I wonder if I try that wine or walking on water trick? Nope. Psychics won’t allow that. The Bible, The Torah, The Quran are mostly fairy tales, but if you add Newton and Einstein’s theorems to them you will see the truth in the words of these sacred texts.

“We Give Thanks. Remembering . . . your work of faith. Works which result from faith. Labor of love. Toil for others caused by love for them and for Christ. Patience of hope. Patient endurance of toil, hardship and persecution through a hope in Christ. Probably a hope that soon these would cease with the coming of Christ. The Thessalonians, as we learn, expected his speedy coming. Knowing . . . your election of God. That you are of the elect, the “chosen nation.” For our gospel came not unto you in word only. God gave the spoken word power, the power of the Holy Spirit which dictated it.”

These are words of an Alien Aramaic language. God the Almighty is the Father of the Universe. The Earth was created in six days but had to be recreated due to the savagery of the Dinosaurs. The Big Bang is the God Molecule. We have the technology, but we use it to destroy. We are not meant to have the power of the Atomic Bomb. The trigger happy nations are pointing arms at each other while my Muslim brothers are flailing their bodies and murdering innocence in a futile attempt to bring about change.

We must remember that we hold God in our hearts, and God’s Will is the Power of Forgiveness. How do you feel when you Forgive someone and you hug them and cry with them? Why do we fight each other the way we do? Why do we hate and why is there so much violence? I am the epitome of violence, yet my soul is soft like a feather. I am a contradiction of myself in which I will fight for you, use the “N” word in Tweets then turn around and cry like a baby at a sappy movie. I married James in Nassau University Medical Center. I put a ring on my finger made of cloth and jewelry and claimed him as my husband because all we had was each other and we survived the Hell of that Psych Ward and made love every time we closed our eyes in our separate beds. A husband and wife need not labels or priests, just a Declaration of Love through adornment. I adore James. He lived a hard life, just like me. HE IS ME. HE IS MY EQUAL. We both got no visits or phone calls for 4 months. We just had each other, and we laughed and lived in that ward with Stars of True Love in Our Eyes. My declaration of marriage is probably the Most Genuine One on the Planet, fuck Megan Markle, seriously.

I forgive you NUMC. I owe you my life. From here on out, we will solve the world’s problems with Mental Health from the most brilliant and greatest city in the world.

My home is New York City. I know her streets, I know her trains, I know her pulse. My heart beats like the lights of Times Square, so come find me, come be my friend, and I will help you be the best you can be and together we live in Peace and Harmony.

Lynn Carefree (Ethlyn Feroz) – Facebook

@LynnLovesTrek (Lipstick and Lace) – Twitter

LynnLovesTrek – Instagram


Contact me if you want to join my movement and help President Trump make us all millionaires and save the United States of America from becoming the Fallen Roman Empire.

If you can’t find a way, I will find one for you.

I love you.

Stay tuned.


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