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Weakened and Broken – How the Psychiatric Industry Can Cripple You With Pills

I have been suffering with Bipolar Disorder for a long time and a lot of it wasn’t by choice. What has your experience been? For me, I was just handed pills to fix my depression and after that my life … Continue reading

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What It Is That I Really Want (Finally!)

Money. Is that what drives you? Is that what you depend on for everything? Do you put money ahead of your friends, family and overall health and life? If so, I suggest you do a major overhaul pronto! I have … Continue reading

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I Might Not Wake Up Tomorrow

Tonight is very hard. I am staring at my Lithium, my Seroquel and my Klonopin and I feel like swallowing them all tonight. I was all ready to sleep after a shower at midnight, and then the tears just kept … Continue reading

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When There is No Hope, My Soul Still Loves You, Please Hold on To My Love

I suffered yesterday. I went back to Nassau University Medical Center to go to the Gynaecology Department because I was hemorrhaging so much blood from my vagina. And do you know what they did? They stuck a medal tube in … Continue reading

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Down, and Down the Rabbit Hole I Go

I am at the top of the world. Things are amazing, and I have wonderful friends and family, with so much love in my life. And then, the hole of depression opens up and swallows everything I have worked so … Continue reading

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My Petty Troubles Seem Infinitesimal In The Wake of a Tragic Loss

Contemplating suicide. I have been there. Many people have. But what is it like to actually see death? I have taken this life for granted. Over the past few days, and into the New Year, I have been writing about … Continue reading

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The Waves of Emotion Can Cripple a Human Soul

What does it feel like to want to die? You hear about suicides, even done by the most famous people like Robin Williams and Heath Ledger and you think why? How could they? I mean they have everything right? Is … Continue reading

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